Sunday, May 01, 2005
what is it that i actually wants?
what exactly is it that makes me feel so depressed?
and sad?
i'm confused.
i'm having this very uneasy feeling.
and i don't know the cause of it.
maybe i need to see a psychologist.
how can i be happy?
how can i overcome this?
how? how? how?
i'm very very confused now.
i hate this feeling.
someone help.
forget it.
no point thinking about it.
i'll just have to live with it.
until it's gone.
hmm. let's see. oh. there are happy things though. i just realised that the wedding reception is such a grand thing. some people will be coming to help us put on make up! and do up our hair! then we'll go somewhere and take photos! yay! i'm just so excited. can i ask for pink eyeliner? haha. hope i can still see my cousin though.
i miss the wooden car in the playground that i grew up with..in canada. i mean when i was very very young, i would go there every evening? and sit there. whenever i see the wooden car now, i would have this feeling. of i don't know what. it's as if i've known it for all my life. just that it's not a living thing. haha. but i have always love the wooden car.
alright. i've got to get back to my science. if i don't do well for the next CA, i'll be dead. and there goes my ambition. i have to work hard! (: au revoir!
oh yeah. thanks claaar for your very logical advice yesterday! really appreciate it. thanks! and we shall work hard and do well for our exams okay? i shall not think of any other things now. haha. (:
[27 more days to Canada]
do i really belong there? i've always feel as though i'm home when i'm there. and all my good old memories..my wooden car too of course! i shall take a photo of it if it's still there in june..
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
5:25 AM